Who I Am | ||||||||||||||||||||||
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What I'm Doing With This Website | ||||||||||||||||||||||
This site is a hypertext, multi-media autobiography. Autobiographies are by their nature self-involved, and this site is no exception. It contains autobiographical essays and self-portraiture in a point-and-click layout I designed and coded myself. I started the site in 1996, and since then it's grown and expanded in concert with my own life and life experiences. Similarly, my self-portraiture has served to document my body and my appearance as I've aged in that time. It remains a work in progress. Many essays are incomplete. Some pages are just placeholders. In fact the site as a whole will never be a completed work. As long as I continue to walk this earth and continue to produce work, I will continue to use this assemblage of media as a mouthpiece for my written word, and a showcase for my audio/visual productions. |
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Obstinately persevering in manifest grave sin | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Getting To Know Me | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Identity Label Me - Itemizing my core identity The Toaph Manifesto - Life Philosophy; Views on Politics and Religion What's Wrong With Me - Everybody's got a disorder. These are mine |
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Condensed Chronologies So Far - A chronological overview of my life Breathe, Reprise - Homes I've lived in My Auto-Biogroaphy - Cars I've owned Damn Straight - My sexuality and romantic history One Is Too Many - My experiences with drug & alcohol abuse and recovery So Far Since - An overview of how my life has changed since this website went online |
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Same-Time-Next-Year Photos |
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The Journey to Exhibitionism Who's That Naked Guy? - Surviving The Quintessential Fraternity Prank Indecent Exposure - What happened when I modeled nude for an art class Mirror, Mirror, on the Web - Net exhibitionism and the nature of vanity |
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"You only live once. But if you do it right, once is enough." - Mae West | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Toaph's Big Adventure: Book I - Ramping Up | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Decent Exposure: The Long Strange Trip Begins Wig Out Bird Song: A tale of love and loss MIX Film Festival ("Pard' Me") Speed Bird Song Epilog: Letting go takes time ToaphStock: The pinnacle in a series of love generation festivals MIX Film Festival ("G*I*J*O", "Network News 2000") A Life-altering Experience Toronto Gay/Lesbian Film Festival ("G*I*J*O") Reprise Speed 2 As Decadent As I Dared Three On A Match Exiled From Sanctuary: Caught having gay sex in my fraternity house MIX Film Festival ("VoyEx", "Come") Night Charm: Taking a stab at professional porn modeling Inside Pride: A new friend and an elaborate, on-location video shoot 20th High School Reunion Folsom Street Fair (Leather jock and latex sleeveless) MIX Film Festival ("Gay Marriage" "Skin Shot") | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Toaph's Big Adventure: Book II - The Bumpy Ride | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Meet Me Under The Joshua Tree: Prologue (Inn Exile) Lost Pride: The weekend that wasn't Narrow Escape: NYIIFVF Folsom Street Fair (Road warrior henchman) MIX Film Festival ("Pee Wee's Sodomy House") Holiday Cabaret with Tigger A Week at Lighthouse Court A Work Conference and a Nightmare Weekend London Gay/Lesbian Film Festival ("Pee Wee's Sodomy House") Unfound Pride: A sickly weekend ICCCR (ID19) MIX Film Festival ("Eating Pussy") Mick Rock Art Opening Birdsong Revisited International Mr. Leather Citroën Rendez-vous (ID19) Meet Me Under The Joshua Tree: Chapter 1 (The Yellow Brick Road) MIX Film Festival ("Malfunction Blvd") Meet Me Under The Joshua Tree: Chapter 2 (Enter the Flying Monkeys) Return to Lighthouse Court Work Conference and an Old Connection Meet Me Under The Joshua Tree: Chapter 3 (The Emerald City) Citroën Rendez-vous (Oldsmobile) Meet Me Under the Joshua Tree: Chapter 4 (The Calm Before) Meet Me Under The Joshua Tree: Chapter 5 (75 Days in the Abyss) Meet Me Under The Joshua Tree: Epilogue (The Long Drive Home) | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Toaph's Big Adventure: Book III - Peak Earning Years | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Citroën Rendez-vous (Z3 w/A) Self-Exposure Book Signing Folsom Street Fair (poop-out) Scuba Abortion Beyond Joshua Tree: Seeds Sprout From Manure French Kiss: My rebound relationship (ooh la la!) Summer Break (D&J, meet Andre) Citroën Rendez-vous (Z3) Northeast Roadster Trip Xmas Get-away Scuba Consolation Spring Break (D&J, see Andre, meet G&W) Folsom Street Fair (JM1)(Leather jock w/ tail and harness top) MIX Film Festival ("Narcissus' Kaleidoscope") Fall Break (D&J) Winter Break (G&W) Funeral For A Friend Citroën Rendez-vous (Fuego) Folsom Street Fair (JM2)(Knee pads) Artflux Soho Gallery: Networking Fall Break (G&W (disappoint)) MIX Film Festival Artflux Soho Gallery: Show Holiday Break (Windemar, reconnect w/ G&W) CA in NY & Spring Break "With You I Want To Live" Table #1 Artflux Soho Gallery: Show Folsom Street Fair (JM3)(Harness bottom & boots) National Equality March | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Surfing On My Laurels | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Fall Break (Windemar) Winter Break (G&W) Going Nowhere Citroën Rendez-vous (Z3) House Boy Folsom Street Fair (JM4)(Mohawk Naked (marker abortion)) Work Trip with Play Between MIX Film Festival ("Reflection Projection") Going Back To Nowhere Citroën Rendez-vous (XJ6 w/A) Funeral for a Friend Southwest Road Trip MIX Film Festival ("Forbidden Cigarette") Winter Break (GN) Citroën Rendez-vous (Fuego w/A) Chiaroscuro: The prideful with proud protegé Folsom Street Fair (Penis Mime) MIX Film Festival ("Point Of View") The Naughtiest One Of All - East Coast Road Trip Citroën Rendez-vous (Fuego, Z3, Phaeton) MIX Film Festival (Lather rejection) Bone Island Weekend - Social Nudity in Key West Salty Boys - Sailing Naked in the Caribbean Birdsong Act II Citroën Rendez-vous (ID19, Fuego, Z3, Phaeton) Folsom Street Fair (Burning Man) MIX Film Festival Lost & Found Citroën Rendez-vous (Fuego, Z3) MIX Film Festival Citroën Rendez-vous (ID) Birdsong Reborn / Folsom Street Fair (Lokai) | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Life in the Slow Lane | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Couchsurfing Confusion Getting Pulled Over Bloody Semen Detained at the Border The Florida DMV Pig Week | ||||||||||||||||||||||
Old Scraps | ||||||||||||||||||||||
My Likes and Dislikes - Superficial generalizations My Turn-ons, Turn-offs, Perfect Man Ouch! - The Pros and Cons of Free-balling Experimenting with Celibacy - Pardoxically an incredibly erotic experience Is Homosexuality Immoral? - A Fraternity Discussion Entering The Lion's Den - Traveling to NYC |